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The downfall of my overseas trip turned out to be for the best, cuz if this had happened to me while I was in the Caucasus, I’d be SOL fo sho.
I have been having trouble getting my prescription filled for Armour thyroid medicine in the correct dosage. Armour only comes in a few different dosages, which need to be cut up to make the correct combination. As my usual combination was unavailable, I called my endocrinologist to ask for a different combination, but her nurse said that she would not write me another prescription until I came in for an appointment. This is fair, as I haven’t been to see her in two years and haven’t had my levels checked in that time. As you may surmise, two years is how long it’s been since I’ve had decent health insurance. Since I left CBS, I’ve had a Blue Cross plan that should be considered criminal – I pay $91/month for what I am told now told is called “catastrophic” insurance, because coverage does not kick in until I’ve paid $3500 out of pocket in a year. What’s catastrophic is that I am not eligible to be seen at a free clinic, because I am technically “insured”. To see my endocrinologist and have the requisite blood tests would be, at minimum, $1000, which is just a little out of my price range at the mo. I was in a lather about the injustice of the health care system in this country, until I saw this article from Natural News and got a whole different issue to get worked up about: http://www.naturalnews.com/027073_thyroid_the_FDA_health.html. Armour’s website says there is a problem with obtaining source material: http://www.armourthyroid.com/. I believed this, but am a conspiracy theorist at heart, so after I read the NN article, the light went on. OF COURSE the FDA would try to shut down production on the natural medication, as they are in the pocket of the makers of a drug that was grandfathered in as “safe” without long-term testing. So instead of being outraged that I was being denied the medication I needed because I couldn’t afford the health care, I turned to being outraged that my truly effective natural medicine was being blacklisted to make way for a chemical mess.
Which is when I decided to fOk the man and go rogue.
People cure themselves of cancer with vegetables, for chrissakes, why can’t I cure myself of a little thyroid condition? When I ran out of pizzizzles, I didn’t sweat it. I said, “That’s cool, I’m gonna beat this thing – I’m a freaking survivor.” I envisioned myself like Jenny McCarthy when she told the world she cured her son of Autism with proper diet. I was gonna cure my thyroid disease. I read up on a nutritional supplement called Vidacell, which has pages of testimonials written by people cured of various ailments: http://www.thehealthiestpeople.com/. I started taking it twice a day. I’ve been religiously drinking a shake loaded with healthful components each day, including iodine, cinnamon, cayenne, spinach, Greek yogurt, nutritional yeast, and maca root, just to name some of the ingredients. I lessened my drinking considerably. I STOPPED VISITING THE BURRITO WAGON.
I really thought it was going to work. I spoke brusquely of unmedicated Hashimoto’s sufferers falling into comas, but how this was not going to happen to me. I was going to become a Super-Powered Human Being. My moods were getting a little wonky, but surely that would even out when the Vidacell had time to work its magic. And my hair, falling out and landing on the plates of my dinner companions? Sure to pass. My eyes, dry and scratchy as when I went without sunglasses in the Middle East? My skin, once so soft but now almost unbearably dry to the touch? The complete and utter exhaustion, which kept me in bed for up to twelve hours per day and made me feel as if I was taking each step with Hulk Hogan on piggyback? Of niggling consequence. What greater body to experiment with than one’s own?
That is, until the unthinkable happened. Out of all the symptoms I’d had, only one was insurmountable. Only one had provided the impetus several years ago to fire three doctors in an effort to find one who would finally switch me from Synthroid to Armour.
Being chubbed out through no fault of my own gave me the outrage and self-pity to get on Armour in the first place. After all, if you’re bald and look like a cancer patient, everyone pities you; if you’re fat, surely it’s your own fat fault, right? But it’s been so long since I’d been fat that I thought I could never be fat again.
Tuesday morning, I noticed I was waddling. I finally got on the scale Thursday. I’d gained 5 pounds, practically overnight. I hadn’t even seen it coming. I went camping this weekend. Friday night, sleeping was impossible; if I laid on my shoulder for a minute, my whole arm would go Novocaine numb because my circulation had become so poor. Saturday morning I was shuffling and slurring my speech – the coma cometh. When I bend my arm, the skin twists and looks like it will crack like a natural casing hotdog. I have literally become a sausage bursting its casing, like so much “dead meat”. I am not digesting or eliminating anything, I am just stagnant – I guess I had that in common with the campsite toilet. My eyes are bulging and hurt to turn. My face is puffy and blends directly into my shoulders. I have no neck to speak of and no mobility in it. I envy owls. Typing is hard, especially since I can’t feel my fingertips. Making a fist is impossible, so I guess it’s as good a time as any to make me angry. Everything I consume seems to be sitting in my throat. I am taking shallow breaths, because there is no room for my lungs to inflate. I look rather like my friend Ani right before she had her twins, so I got on the scale again this morning – I’ve gained 6 pounds since Thursday, a tidy sum of 11 pounds in just under a week.
Apparently, while I was thinking I was not being terribly affected by not taking the Armour, there was actually still enough in my system for me to get by, but when it was gone, it was G.O.N.E. gone. Like fo real gone. Like “car stopped on the side of the road cuz it’s got no gas” gone. Thankfully, I still have my mental faculties and will be calling a more helpful clinic when they open tomorrow at 8:30am. To string out the metaphor further, I will be running waddling to the gas station with my little red gas can.
If anyone asks if I have a name for my impending bundle of joy, I shall tell them Hashimoto’s Chocolate Starfish, or: How I Learned To Embrace Big Brother and Take My Freaking Medicine.
I am such a tool.
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